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Name: matthew
Country: United States
State: California
Metro: San Diego
Birthday: 11/25/1981
Gender: Male
Interests: California -
playing guitar - singing - writing songs - my girl, Annie... she's lovely.
Expertise: i am an expert in something... i just haven't found out what it is yet.
Occupation: Retired
Message: message me
Website: visit my website
Member Since:
10/2/2004
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| so today i am a quarter of a century old.
i've had a little bit of a hard time with that, but i realize that it's mostly lies that are the reason for that.
turning 25 is an amazing thing, yet this voice inside continues to ask, "what have you done with your life?" i look at the goals that i have had and dreamed about these last 5 years or so and hear, "you haven't accomplished much, have you? where's your ___, and what about the ____???" and if i really start to believe it, i get pretty bummed out.
but then i start to see the truth, and it blows me away. there is a lot that i have to be thankful for and be proud about (in a humble way, heh).
if there's one thing i've learned in these last twenty four years, it's that along with the goals, hopes, and dreams that i've had, one of the most important things (i would even call a virtue) that i need to accompany with them is patience.
i have grown up believing and seeing that God gives us dreams, visions and aspirations to fulfill us, and bring us to our most complete potential. there are reasons for the things we reach for... but it doesn't always happen the way we think it should. when and how are the two main things i battle with. i know it's just because i want to have control. i want to drive myself to these goals, and have it right now! it's like when you're a kid and you're on a road trip with your family and you can't stop asking, "are we there yet?"
sometimes you just want to get there, but in doing so, you miss all the things that happen along the way. i know it sounds like a fortune cookie, but it's true when they say that the journey is more important than the destination. our society is so fixed on that destination that we have become so dissatisfied and driven for that instant gratification.
so, as i turn twenty five today, i guess i just want to make sure that i don't become dissatisfied at where i am in life, because the truth is, i have a beautiful wife (whom i don't deserve), a home, wonderful friends and family, and the last thing i should do is have a pity party because there are still some dreams that i haven't seen come into reality...
it doesn't mean it never will
just not today.
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| hey,
so it's been a few months since i've used this thing. i'm not much of a blogger anymore. it's probably because i am working full time as well as renovating my (& wife's) new home. we have been living here for about 7 weeks or so, but have been giving it a cosmetic facelift since the beginning of july! our only source of running water is still just from our bath tub. the shower, bath, and toilet work just fine, but our sinks aren't fully installed yet, so it's a bit like camping i suppose. our countertop in the kitchen is so close to being finished, i can't hardly wait! then we can actually cook for once here!!! not just use the microwave or toaster oven. it's been a huge learning experience for annie and i. annie has been so patient through all of this... it blows me away.
well that's it for me. see you in a few months,
matthew
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after living here in the united states of america for a little over a year, i finally have become a fully legit permanent resident alien!!
(basically, i got my green card)
i am so happy.
what with all the immigration problems here in san diego, i'm surprised they let me stay... you know, since i'm so dangerous and foreign looking.
ok, i'm sitting here at work on my lunch break, and the cleaning guys have come to tidy up the office and I have NEVER seen a guy SO PASSIONATE about cleaning in my entire life. he's like the cleaning nazi, ordering the other dude around like he's got 10 seconds to work with and only one arm... sorry, wasn't really funny... anyways, we call him "edward dusterhands" because he walks the entire office & tile showroom with a dustmop in each hand, flipping them about like it's an artform you gotta get a college degree for.
maybe i should go back to college.
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i now have two homes
one is furnished, but isn't mine
the other is completely empty, badly needing a cosmetic change, but is mine
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it's weird living in a new place when the very reason you have come is no longer here.
...good thing she's only on vacation
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